Here we are What is left of a husband and a wife four good kids Who have a way of gettin on with their lives I'm not old but I'm getting a whole lot older every day It's too late to keep from goin' crazy I got to get away
The reasons that I can't stay don't have a thing to do with being in love And I understand that lovin a man shouldn't have to be this rough You ain't the only one Who feels like this world left you far behind I don't know why you gotta be Angry All The Time
Our boys are strong the spittin image of you when you were young I hope someday they can see past what you have become I remember every time I said I'd never leave What I can't live with is memories of the way you used to be
The reasons that I can't stay don't have a thing to do with being in love And I understand that lovin a man shouldn't have to be this rough You ain't the only one Who feels like this world left you far behind I don't know why you gotta be Angry All The Time
Twenty years have came and went since I walked out of your door I never quite made it back to the one I was before And God it hurts me to think of you For the light in your eyes was gone sometimes I don't know why this old world can't leave well enough alone
The reasons that I can't stay don't have a thing to do with being in love And I understand that lovin a man shouldn't have to be this rough You ain't the only one Who feels like this world left you far behind I don't know why you gotta be Angry All The Time
He made me feel like a stalked animal, he didn't want to get close in my way. It used to not be like that but I think carrying a lot of the work load of the marriage and his first affair just made me need that little extra romance and he never seemed to want to go there for me. Was it always all about him??
Not sure I understand this completely. How did he make you feel like a stalked animal?
I don't think needing romance is a problem AT ALL. My W and I used to be very romantic. I still was in my own way. Problem was that she's very opinionated and she developed an attitude that being playful wasn't dignified. So she acted cold. It was always her way or the highway. This sounds worse than it actually was, but even an old friend called after hearing about the D and told me, "One thing that always bothered me was that you were such a nice person and she never seemed to have any empathy." Telling words. Not that I'm a saint, by any means, but you need empathy to get over the rough spots.
Ok, the Sex-Starved Separation Forum went downhill fast. As long as we're spinnin' some tunes, I'll make a departure from usual Patty Griffin and post this, which is at least a LITTLE more positive:
Bonnie Raitt - Takin' My Time
I'm takin' my time So please don't rush me. Tryin' to sort out some things I didn't know existed. I've been here before, I know where the traps lie. You only take what's there 'cause the rest doesn't matter.
Well I'm tired of talk, So please don't push me. You know I want the same kinda things that you do. You're wasting your time, The way you come to me. Slow down your rhymes and try to reason
Can't make things move any faster, By second wishing them to death. You seem to be living on the level. It's decent enough, You got what you wanted. So why do you tell me, that I'm on the wrong track? I'm doin' the best I can do.
I try to out guess The situation That I know your not even fully aware of. And I want you to know, If it keeps on this way, Can't keep on letting you bring me down. Can't keep on letting you bring me down.
I would come home from work and the kids were all "at my feet" wanting this and that and there was H gropping(sp?) or trying to set up a sexual encounter while I still had everyone wanting me. I was always pulled in 5 directions (rarely my own). It could have been solved if he could have helped the kids with dinner, homework etc, but he would wait until I got home(he would get home around 5, me around 7:30) and let me handle all of it and then just be waiting for me.
Lots of pressure and didn't make it fun. I often asked him for what I needed but he just cared about me fulfilling his wants. He must have held a grudge for a long time.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Tonight, chef lodo is going to prepare a delicate cornmeal crust pizza topped with italian sausage and uncured pepperoni (purchased from local supermarket) and placed on a bed of mache. Accompanying the pizza will be a 2005 Bonny Doon "Big House Red" table wine. The cats are nowhere to be seen so who knows what they'll be having.
The paper topic tonight will be on the effectiveness of modeling in the social sciences. Lodo will revise page 1 of this paper over and over while ignoring the remaining 14 pages that have yet to be written.
Who exactly was it that thought summer school for working adults was a good idea?
I know you probably are working hard on your paper or you are eating but I wanted to know what time works for you on Saturday. It could be late afternoon or early evening in case anyone has evening plans(I don't darn it). Just let me know.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Working hard on the first page of my paper? Not yet. I need to get into that space of intense creativity first. And the pizza was absolutely delicious!
On saturday I am all yours. Tell me when you want to watch the movie of your choosing and I'll do so. I'll make popcorn, prepare some drinks (Ladies choice!), and pretend to settle into my sofa (which hasn't arrived yet) to watch the chick flick.
I'll double check my "busy" calander and tell you for sure. I know I have a suprise going away party to go to for a couple hours in the afternoon but then I should be free. Wish you all were here so I really could hang out all day with all of you. You aren't watching Hellboy to get your creative juices flowing? Ask g, I think he is enjoying it a great deal.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
