my story adventures of a WAW!

[christarn]

WOW..thanks for all the input!! should have made this topic it's own thread

I feel personally responsible for many things that went wrong in my M...not all...but many. I just know I said some harsh things about my IL's, and no matter how twisted the words became, they once fed me, opened their home to me, and loved me as their own...for this, I owe them an apology. I also need to respect my H enough, to honor where it is he came from and respect those roots as well. I am not or will not beg or plead for forgiveness...or go into great lengths. I just need to get some of this weight off of my chest...and after talking with my coach, I think it's a good idea. I'm a little concerned though, as H has been really text happy the past couple of days.

Speaking of the devil...he text msgd me today and I asked if I could meet him during my break as he had the "credit card" with him. I did...low and behold, it was a real live credit card. I don't know which one of my cards has been bought out by this company, and which card I had not changed to my new address...but it was a live card...not an offer!! So I'm sure my jaw hit the ground when he handed it to me! I guess now I'm wondering what will the next week or so bring as that is all he has really talked about to lead him into any "chatty" stuff...i'm really hoping he won't disappear again. I guess only time will tell. We BS'd for a minute, then he had to get back to work. I'm still uncertain about the festival days. Things right now are good between he and I, and I'm just so nervous about something screwing that up....not sure what I'm going to do yet. Suppose to go with my sister down home to the first night of the festival tomorrow...will make a final decision then!

thanks for all the input!!
hugs 2 all
christa