Bring on the Rain - Part 2

[SueS]

Ahhhh Sheila, you know that you always make me feel so much better don't you?

Thanks for stopping by too mzul. I know you're going through tough, tough times and I appreciate you taking the time for me.

Let's see, what's been going on? H got home last night from work and was nosey as could be. I was sitting on the deck talking on the phone to my sister and he lurked like you wouldn't believe! We took D4 to the park before it started raining. I saw a mom there with her 2 girls. We had some very small talk, but I really wanted to talk to her more. She wasn't wearing a ring and I just had this feeling that she's a single mom. Not that her being without a ring is a positive that she's single, but the way her girls & she interacted, it was just like they are all each other has. Her girls were 4 & 6. I would have talked more but H was nearby. It was weird for me. It was the first time that I'd really wanted to reach out and really talk to someone I didn't know. Make any sense? I guess D4 and I will have to go to that park more often. She said they live nearby and go there quite a bit. I started thinking about how I hope I have decent neighbors and how I'm going to have to force myself to meet new people. I'm not exactly the outgoing person I was when I was younger. I'll have to find some sort of a group to join. Oh, as the lady mentioned above was leaving the park, she said good-bye to me and said see you another time. Anyway, I was once again reminded of how much my H's wandering eye has bothered me all these years. Despite his true love & devotion for OW, he could NOT quit staring at this woman. She was a "girl next door" type. Very average. My H has always told me that he prefers women like that.

H hinted that he wanted sex last night and this morning. He acted grumpy this morning when I simply went into the bathroom to shower and didn't rush to his side. Last night D4 was scared of the storm we were getting. I let her lay with me and we both fell asleep. She was so sweet & snuggly.

H went to see an attorney today re: his DUI. I was amazed at how he kind of laughed at things. H said that this attorney said that at this point they will try to delay things & hope that it gets bogged down in the system and then they'd argue things to the point that hopefully the judge will just give him careless driving. H also said that the attorney will raise the argument that H is 41 and this is the first time he's ever been caught and also say that it was an isolated incident!! H also mentioned that he'd have to go for chemical dependency testing. He absolutely fails to see his drinking as any type of a problem. H's attorney is going to be a flat $2000 fee. That does not include a likely $1000 fine and possible court costs. H acted like the money was no big deal. Yet, again, he's behind on daycare!

I saw that my H has received a few more links to rentals from OW. H has also been searching for flights to Las Vegas. He and his brother had talked when we were back in IN about going there in July. My H is unbelievable!! The lack of concern about his soon to be split family is amazing. It seems to not be affecting him one single bit.

Well, D4 is bugging me like crazy to play some games. Time to go. Have a good evening.

SueS