Still in love with my waw....after divorce

[Bill_S]

Chevelle,

Its funny. She never wanted divorce. Promised to NEVER cheat or be like she was at the end of her first divorce. She said she was in it forever. Wanted to work on things, especially after her first affair. Said lots of nice things too. But what happened?

On sunday I talked with her dad about a business and we ended up talking about attitude and negative people, the future etc. At some point she came up. He told me "Dont expect rational responses from an irrational person" WOW. And he said at first he was worried I was out to get her like her first ex. But not now. Sees growth and change. In her too but MUCH slower than me. Good compliment. At least they understand why I struggled over the last year.

My son said good 'ol mom refused to give him some chocolate chips because they were going into a desert for her boyfriend. Shes been gone since friday with him. And when he was hungry she told him to call me so I could feed him. He feels like this guy is more important than him! Ive tried to talk to her about this stuff but her fun is more important and Im just "controlling her". She promised her son she would be home by midnight and NEVER came back. I trusted her even though she was nasty to me that night. So instead of 2 hours alone (they are 10 and 12) with 2 friends staying over, it was another all nighter. The next day I texted and told her it was wrong and she responded she cried all day because she did it and told the kids she was sorry. She wants to be a good mom again but wants to spend the night with this guy at "our" house or his. So the lifestyle wins out again. She even yelled at my son for the living room being messy (she was gone for 3 days) and if he doesnt make sure the house is clean before she comes home(bf doesnt like her messy house) she wont feed him (I feed him,and hers too)! He said when hes hungry its either get it yourself,call your dad or ignored. But when her bf wants food shes up to fix something or get something. Talk about burning bridges! She just doesnt see what shes doing! He wants to live with me even more.

Just frustrates the crap out of me. And now shes being snotty. Her d17 has had her boyfriend spend the night twice and I texted her mom. Said i wasnt getting involved and told her dad (ex's) about it so she would have some backup. Then I dropped it. Now Im dirt again.Either things arent going well with her bf or she thinks Im messing with her life.

Shes on the Bi-Polar express again! And as usual everyone else suffers.