Moving Forward 4

[whitneypinch]

Hi there over here.
I an not sure if excited is how I feel
I am feeling a huge loss for what a great situation that I had and lost. For me I have realized through therapy that a lot of me negativity and lack of apprecaiation in my M was from my childhood and the nasty D I experienced as a kid.
That is really hard to take once you realize it and turn your life around. It is really like an illness that I had and got treatment for. That is also really hard to know that and know that W does not really know that. I know it does not make it ok that some of us treat our wives poorly as we are so selfish. I have 2 of the most beautiful children in the world and I have tears everyday I don't see them. That for me is the hardest part of all of this. It's the loss of my family that makes me want to do whatever needs to be done to make this right. My W misses them when she does not have them but is not driven like I am. I have read so many books now on relationships and divorce and feel I am finally equipped with knowledge that I never had. Yes, I am moving forward with life but I miss my family ::(