Pregnant and trying to be stronger

[S.T. _I Made It!]

"*Typing with one hand!"

wow, so true. even when they are 3. lol

everyone here is speaking truth. This is why I say you need to start making lists. make lists of good things. you've got to focus on this. Paul said it best "Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable-if anything is excellent or praiseworthy-think about such things." Phillipians 4:8

God knows we are/were hurting. But it is also up to us to do what he has told us to break free from that hurt. This can be a learning experience for you, or a life-breaking experience.

Here's another way to think about it.

You said

Maybe it's because I'm angry that H acts all happy in his new life and I am not. Maybe I'm jealous that he got what he wanted from someone else and I got a lot of pain and hurt and anger because of it.

This is EXACTLY what YOUR suppose to do not H. Act happy in your new life and H will be the one jealous. Your giving HIM the control by allowing this.

One thing that I will say in defense of your H, is that I think he's actually giving a lot to this pregnancy given the circumstance. Maybe I didn't get much in either of my pregnancies so I can only compare it to mine. But even when my H WAS M to me, he didn't give as much time to the preg as your H has. I don't know if your H has had ulterior motives, but I think that there IS part of him that is wanting to be a part of this and trying.

Another thing is...if I remember right, your mom has been pretty good about H. meaning, she hasn't been like NikB's mom (sorry nik to point your mom out) where she would only say bad things about H, like ALL the time. If your mom would be comfortable and not be judgemental or critical of H then I think it could work with them being together, otherwise I would say, you better choose one or the other.

Have you asked H if HE wants to be there? (the birth) just wondering. that way you could ask and say... H, are you excited about attending the birth? (If he is hesitant or says I don't know, then you could say) Oh, well, my mom would really like to be there, but as you know I can only have 1 person, so if you'd feel more comfortable not being there, I can have my mom go.