I haven't posted on your thread before but I understand exactly what you are talking about. It is the lack of companionship and affection that is really difficult when you have been so close to someone for so long and still long for them.
Sometimes when I find myself sitting in my house all alone and lonely I find it best to employ diversion tactics on myself. I distract myself by doing something else. If you make up your mind to do that I have found it very effective.
I was offered the opportunity a couple of months ago of one night of 'companionship' with someone that I already knew and at first I said yes as I was just pining for some comfort and companionship. It took a really good friend to ask me 'what do you really want'. I knew that I had made a promise to my husband and what I really wanted was to stay true to that and actually seeing this person would be a sticking plaster over the actual cause and in the long run would make me feel worse.
That is just my situation though... you have to make the decision that is right for you.
So at the moment I sleep next to my faithful cat that is very happy with the extra space that is now in the bed! Although she snores a lot louder than my husband ever did...
