Good to hear from you. Yes, I'm focusing on what I can control and not worrying about what I can't. My W is in her own world and if you read our exchange earlier in this thread, you can see she is still pointing the finger at me.
So, what did I choose to do? Take accountability for what I'm responsible for and that is that. I'm really not afraid of her deposition as I'll own up to what I've done. I have to b/c I am responsible.
The interaction was a bit of a thaw, but I still see us getting the D. I'm pretty confident that if we get back together it will either be w/ W asking for an 11th-hour stay of my signing the papers or after we're D, then she'll realize that wasn't what she wanted after all. Or, neither will happen.
I'm preparing myself to the best of my ability for any outcome at this point. And yes, I do cherish every moment w/ D that I can get. However, I do have to admit that I HATE the last two hours before I drop her off. I just get so blue w/ the thought I have to give her back. I need to get better at this and not allow it to come in between any time I have w/ my baby.
