Thanks all! Countdown to vacation is on... I am SO excited!!

Haven't tried another text, but have tried a few flirty comments and more friskiness. \:\)

ST
Yeah, I guess it will take a long time to heal. And on top of that I'm not sure HOW to go about starting that healing knowing that he's still in contact with her as his "BFF" (barf!!!) or at least I think he is. Wow.. no emotion from the pic? That's amazing. I look forward to getting there.

Donna
Thank you!!

James
Thanks for checking in! Yes, definitely need to get better at expressing myself more directly. (if OT is reading, she'll confirm that one for sure! ;\) ).

I'm not so sure on making it about her though. While I think what she did is disgusting and the way she treated me was awful (partly my fault for allowing it), it's about ME protecting myself. Right now, that means avoiding her and anything that reminds me of her. And to some degree, it IS about distrust in him. I mean.. he's the one who made the commitment to me, it was on HIM not to have an A - EA, PA, whatever, and he's the one who has not cut off communication with her. (yes he's cut it WAY back and I believe he now thinks it's at an "appropriate" level - which I will need to talk to him about soon - but he hasn't cut it completely).

I am soooo not a camping person. \:\) BUT - we are going up to his Mom's cabin in Tahoe for a few days. It's my kinda camping - beautiful trees, gorgeous sights, open land, log cabin - and a warm, soft bed and shower.

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So as I mentioned vacation is almost here! H is funny, he's REALLY emphasizing how he doesn't want to spend a bunch of money on things this week. It's striking me funny because I'm not exactly "high maintenance." I mean yeah I ENJOY meals out and vacations and whatnot, but I don't "demand" them or something, and I enjoy plenty of free activities too (some of my favorite memories are picnics in the park or at the lake). I'm happy eating in and renting a movie or sitting by the fireplace or whatever, too (well not right now, it's like 95 degrees outside, but you get the idea \:\) ).

We've decided to split the vaca up a bit. Some of it will be working hard to catch up on things around the house that we've let slip - his idea, BTW. I had it in mind too, but he was the first to mention it. I sure as heck didn't want to turn his vacation into a "honey do" list but there is a lot we're just plain behind on. We'll do a lot of that Friday and this weekend.

Monday, we're leaving for the aforementioned cabin in Tahoe. Sooo excited to go up there. I love that place. It should be beautiful. I think he was concerned THAT part would get pricey. I kid you not, he was saying "And maybe we can take food out of the fridge, you know, stuff that was going to go bad or has been in the freezer awhile, so we might not even have to buy groceries." (am I the only one who finds that odd/funny??). "And we should take our bikes, it's great to ride around by the lake, and it's free!" At some point this week I jokingly said "Well maybe we could go out ONE night, to [our fave place up there, not all that pricey]?" and he looked almost defeated. Oops.

So like I said, I'm getting the feeling it's really important to him both that we make it a "cheap" week and that we can have fun and connect and all that, and maybe even approach this "challenge" together. When I saw the look on his face after my comment about going out I said "Of course all I REALLY want is their garlic soup [it's sooo good, we literally want to lick the bowl right there in the restaurant every time], maybe we can get some to go and take it back to the cabin with us." He seemed to like that idea. Whew.

The weekend should have a few fun things too. Sat. night is my little sister's dance recital. She's gotten really good and gets to do one of the dances with the teachers this time - she's super excited about that. Sunday is the "Safari" with my Dad, bro, SIL, and sis for Father's day. I've always wanted to do that so I'm looking forward to it.

I'll check in on everyone soon!


Me 35, H 38; Together 13.5 yrs, M 7
Bomb 1 10/07/06
Sep'd 1/14/07 - 4/15
Piecing: 4/07 - 9/07
Bomb 3 10/11/07: Never loved you, let's separate
2/08 slowly improving
7/08 Piecing (7/25/08 rings back on!!)
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