in limbo and an emotional mess...

[MAZ]

well I am about to give up,, H is doing whatever he has to for OW, even took her to a Tim McGraw concert Sunday nite (when he was supposed to stop by here for dinner), mind you he never took me ANYWHERE,,, was always too tired, etc. I'm just physically and emotionally drained... have been very cold to H since this whole concert thing, didn't txt him this morning as I usually do, told him we had to talk in the txt I sent sunday nite after I found out about the concert and he hung up on me because he didn't want to talk to me in front of OW,, and yet he calls me at work today and tells me he needs a check for his rent,, how am I supposed to give him a check for his rent when she is living with him,,,and not contributing a dime... I am just so ready to give up at this point,,, and at the same time don't want to, but I am tired of fighting, he didn't see me or the kids all weekend,, and just doesn't seem to get it.... yet still says he loves me when I do talk to him on the phone,, I must be an idiot!!!!