I wish I could say the same, that I'm strong enough to let him go. I've been lied to and cheated on for years, and I'm still here. I'm pretty sure that if we didn't have children, I wouldn't be, but we do and anyway, the thought of living without my H sends me into such a panic I can't stand it. And yet every day that goes by, I have less respect for myself, wondering why I am putting up with this. I think the biggest part is my fear that no one will ever love me and that I will always be alone, shrivelled and bitter as my children grow up and leave. I've asked myself if I would go if there was someone one else waiting in the wings, but it doesn't really matter, as cheating just isn't me. If a relationship were moving at all in that direction, I would be incredibly uncomfortable - how stupid am I?
Anyway, I would love to know how it goes and what has given you this new strength. I'll keep checking in.
