Not sure where to go here!! HELP!!

[Augtan]

Thanks lwb!! It is so hard to go thru all this. I cannot imagine anything more painful than your H having an affair. And, you are right, I never heard how unhappy he was until he started with the A. I told my neighbor just days before I found out about the A the exact time he went for Jekyle to Hyde and as it turned out it was the exact time he started the A, almost to the day!! Now, he will never convince me he was soooo unhappy even before the A when I can pinpoint the exact time he changed from nice to the meanest husband ever!! I just never dreamed he would or could do this to me. The day before I found out one of my other friends asked me yet again if I thought he was having an A, that he just treated me soooo terrible, and I told her there was "no way"!! Boy, was I a fool!! I don't trust my instincts at all anymore!!

My H and I really do come from different worlds and if I could look at it without any emotion or kids, we probably don't belong together or even really want the same things for the future. But, I committed to him and to our kids, they didn't ask to be born and don't deserve to come from a broken home. I hate it all. I love him, but would probably be happier with someone with the same goals and aspirations as me. I was just raised that you don't give up on people and that family is forever, no matter what!! How do I get that out of my system and move on? He absolutley does not want this marriage and tells me everyday that he has been honest with me and wants out, he doesn't want t be a husband any longer!!