Pregnant and trying to be stronger

[NikB]

But, H comments about OW and how she's "thinking of me" totally made me want to reach through the phone and rip his cold little heart out.

Oh believe me, I know the feeling really well. It's common for them to want to "show" you how great thw OP is. Barf. Hopefully your comments will make him cut it out for awhile.

I feel angry that he doesn't have to suffer for anything.

You feel angry - that is true.

Him not suffering is another untrue assumption. Stop.

I'm just feeling the hurt again. I wish I could pull myself out of it quickly. It's just harder this time.

I think you're MAKING it harder on yourself this time. Maybe just the hormones? Or maybe stress/nerves about the baby coming and you're associating all that with your H's actions? I don't know... probably a combination. Please be careful though, you seem to be getting almost comfortable in the "poor me my H ruined my life" role. You start to get out of it and it's almost like you panic and run back to it. It's not uncommon but if that's the case, you've got to find ways to break the cycle and learn to be "OK with being OK" if that makes sense.

I saw this really good article that Oldtimer posted to Donna's thread in Surviving:
http://www.cnn.com/2008/LIVING/personal/06/03/o.awful.shut.up/index.html?iref=mpstoryview

Any of it ring true for you at all? A LOT of it did for me, and it made me really think. Hope it's helpful for you too.