I really don't have much to post about these days. It is summer - the angst levels are low.
My hip is back to normal. I am slowing uping my workouts - need to loose that stuff I accumulated while I was hunched over a computer. I am going to start swimming this evening - and well - yes, using new muscles again means parts of me will be a walking mass of pain... Sigh... when you let yourself go - that is the price you pay...
Shoe technology has come a long way in 5 years! LOL! I feel like I am barefoot - my workout shoes have no weight. Or perhaps I am high in life and walking on air! LOL!
Last night I had an 11 pm deadline. At 9 pm - I was still working and then decided to stop and "buy" an extra month to do the work. I could have finished it - BUT I watched PS I Love You instead. Yes, it cost me a few bucks - but work is always there - peace of mind is priceless - and it takes effort to maintain it.
As for personal R's - I am mentally ready to date - but well things have changed since the last time I was single. Men my age that have been in long term R's seem to move very quickly into new R's. And well I suppose my standards - if that is what you call it - are higher. I want someone that has taken the time to heal and is whole again. I want someone that wants to be with me - as opposed to "needs" to be with me.
Funny how in our 20's - men were typically the ones that moved more slowly than women. In my 40's - the women seem to move more slowly in R's than the men... Of course that is not always true - and I am counting on it not being always true!
Although sometimes the appealing thing about younger men - is that they seem to "need" me less... We'll see...
Nevertheless - I am in no rush. I have a very fulfilling life. I am looking for another person with a fulfilling life to share my life with. Ironically - when you are centered - you do seem to attract people that want to lean on your centeredness - but being centered is not "infectious." The person has to do the work on their own. And I like centered b/c it strengthens my ability to be centered. Off-center people - you need extra strength to maintain your centeredness.
Yes, I am babbling... It is warm and sunny and well my office has a mandate that all employees must nap for an hour - so well I am off to nap before my boss catches me awake... It this how people develop split personalities...
