One moment at a time... as strange as it sounds... one foot in front of the other and consider each movement an accomplishment..
My T had talked about some days being an accomplishment to just get out of bed and brush your teeth. I honestly thought she was joking... til last Monday. I got out of bed all right about 5 am... ready for war... got my brain back about 10 minutes into the drive to H's house. Came home, called someone very close to me at 5:30 am. (yes... there's a friend eh?... she's always up at that time, but still!) Her info gave me the realization that I needed to let go. In order to let go, you also need to grieve. Spent the rest of the day bawling in bed. Tried to get up... picked up the brush to brush my hair and honestly... didn't have the energy to actually brush my hair. I HONESTLY did not know how someone.... anyone could get that out of sorts... but I do now! Then you have to force yourself to get up, do something,... wash your hair, put on make up... shave.... get dressed. (Pick something NEW out of your closet).
And then ... ya gotta take it... one moment at a time. One day at a time. And it's time to take care of YOU!!!!!
Matter of fact, I had to make the resolve to do something for me each day after this latest revelation. I'm taking a craft class on Friday and today, I used a newspaper coupon and went and whacked on a medium bucket of golf balls. (good stress busting that!!!)
DO SOMETHING for YOU to break the routine. Make new routines. Do new things.
Go to the library. Take out a book on decorating, or something that has a lot of nice pictures.
Take care of YOU! *hugs* Abbey
T:22, M:20 H:55 Me:45 H-OW PA: N/07 OW Jan08 Bomb:Feb/08 S: Apr/08 Back together Ap1/09-Sept/11 Oct, 2011, uncertain future/H is a mess. Dec/11 - Doin'friend mode. Some days are better than others.
