((((Michelle)))) I hope things stay better for you today and that you can find strength in whatever H throws your way. Thanks for the posts this weekend, even though you were in the middle of your own crisis. Sorry for the less than helpful post, but I do think that maybe you and I are in the same boat of sorts. Maybe its time to let go but for ourselves.
We are all here for you and I'm so glad school is over for you so you can get some R & R. About the bruising...makeup and a snarky comeback were the best things I could come up with for mine. A well placed, "You should see the other guy!" with a wink goes a long way.
Hugs to you, Corey
M:39 H:39 K:S14;D8 T:22yr M:15yrs S:12/28/07 EA/PA 3/14/08 OW preg 11/17/08 born 12/12/08 his ~~~~~~~ Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option
One moment at a time... as strange as it sounds... one foot in front of the other and consider each movement an accomplishment..
My T had talked about some days being an accomplishment to just get out of bed and brush your teeth. I honestly thought she was joking... til last Monday. I got out of bed all right about 5 am... ready for war... got my brain back about 10 minutes into the drive to H's house. Came home, called someone very close to me at 5:30 am. (yes... there's a friend eh?... she's always up at that time, but still!) Her info gave me the realization that I needed to let go. In order to let go, you also need to grieve. Spent the rest of the day bawling in bed. Tried to get up... picked up the brush to brush my hair and honestly... didn't have the energy to actually brush my hair. I HONESTLY did not know how someone.... anyone could get that out of sorts... but I do now! Then you have to force yourself to get up, do something,... wash your hair, put on make up... shave.... get dressed. (Pick something NEW out of your closet).
And then ... ya gotta take it... one moment at a time. One day at a time. And it's time to take care of YOU!!!!!
Matter of fact, I had to make the resolve to do something for me each day after this latest revelation. I'm taking a craft class on Friday and today, I used a newspaper coupon and went and whacked on a medium bucket of golf balls. (good stress busting that!!!)
DO SOMETHING for YOU to break the routine. Make new routines. Do new things.
Go to the library. Take out a book on decorating, or something that has a lot of nice pictures.
Take care of YOU! *hugs* Abbey
T:22, M:20 H:55 Me:45 H-OW PA: N/07 OW Jan08 Bomb:Feb/08 S: Apr/08 Back together Ap1/09-Sept/11 Oct, 2011, uncertain future/H is a mess. Dec/11 - Doin'friend mode. Some days are better than others.
A well placed, "You should see the other guy!" with a wink goes a long way.
LMAO. Nice. Especially since I'd most likely be saying that TO "the other guy" if I see my H tonight.
I have hit a point where I am definitely considering throwing up my hands and walking away. Letting him go through with this D and live with the consequencees. He thinks it will make him happy, I don't think it will, but I can't change his mind obviously. Unfortunately for him, if he lets whatever D papers he files finalize, that will be it. I'm done giving him chances. He's used up a lifetimes worth already.
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
I hope H doesn't contact you tonight. Hopefully he's calmed down a bit. And feel free to blow him off if you feel like it.
Me: 30 W: 28 T 8, M 6 S: 7-27-2007 W filed (again) 3-2011 Served 8-2011 Responded, now dark "I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too great a burden to bear" MLK
Well, I had a great time discussing the game and trying to keep up via commentary. Wish I could have watched it with friends IRL, but a good substitute.
What sucks is I am going to miss big chunks of Euro 2008 for my unit annual training. I'll be cloistered away from internet and even regular phone access from this Saturday through next Sunday.
Oh well.
No word from H. And I sure the hell ain't contacting him.
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
