Help! New to this...still hoping for R

[Rusty]

You are so right Tink. Everyone has said the same thing. And I will. My future DIL has me scheduled for makeup and I have my hair person on the calendar as well. My sister, who is my clothing stylist has dressed me and bejeweled me, so it is all in place. I just need to make sure I don't get overly emotional. Everytime I hear a song that might be the one for S and I to dance to, I just bawl! It will be very emotional - my oldest S and I are very close. He has been my rock through all of this, even though I know not to involve him as much as I have, so I am working to change that.
I had a nice, yet brief, conversation with H last night. I am just continuing to use the "Do Over" mindset after my miserable backslide on Sunday. It's just that after we spend time together, like we did on Saturday at our other S graduation, I miss him so much. I think that is what precipitated my crying, begging backslide. I apologized and told him I was very emotional with all the events and I wouldn't do it again. So now I just have re-read parts of DR to try to get back on track. And printed off a lot of the advice here. It sure does help!