Onward and upward

[mishka422]

Thanks guys! Trying to have an absolutely brilliant day and was succeeding pretty well until I let a text from H get to me and he didn't even mean anything by it. I'm not saying what I want to say to him right now because it would only do further damage so I'm putting it here to vent!

H-S13's Dr. appt has been changed from 17JUN to 23JUN at 445p
M-Why?
H-Dr. going out of town.
H-prescription can be picked up on 16JUN.
M-Any particular time I need to pick up by?
H-No, just call before you go.
M-OK. I have jury duty that day so hopefully I can get there while they're there otherwise scrip will run out and I can't have that.
H-ok.
M-I can't get off work early on 23JUn to take him. I'll have to call and change it. thx.
H-I can do both, I was just letting you know.

Now, what I want to answer to him is this:

I can do it all on my own thanks. You're going to be taking care of someone else (H is taking 2 weeks off to take care of OW after some surgery on 20JUN) so I can handle everything. Don't worry about it, you're not needed.

What I suppose I should just say is no thank you. I'll handle it. Leave it at that. What do you guys think? Should I just cut him out as much as possible? It's hurting me too much for him to be doing these things. I know it's probably really bad of me to not want him to just take care of these things for S13. I think it just irked me to know that is when he's off work "taking care" of the broom. She gets to be taken care of after she destroyed her own family and aided in destroying mine. WTF is that? Ok, really angry right now. Not responding to H. That would be bad.

Michelle - How do you find it possible to be so encouraging after the day from hell you had yesterday? I'm so impressed by you.

Lisa - Seriously - give coffee a chance. I promise to drink more tea if you'll have some really good coffee.

Jeff, Lisa, Florie Michelle- You all make a good point. She doesn't understand at all but she's one of my best friends and she wants to make sure I'm ok. I know she hates to see me hurt and that is where her opinion is coming from. Even my friends who are D tell me to just file myself and get this over with as he apparently doesn't plan on making any changes.

One thing she said in our conversation that struck me and I had to point out to her was this. "Why stay M? All it's doing is keeping that emotional connection. You don't need that." I told her, "Do you really think that a piece of paper that says I'm divorced is going to sever the emotional connection?" "Well, it would help." WRONG! Can you imagine thinking a piece of paper is going to change your emotions? If anything, I think at this point it would make me feel worse.

Sorry to babble on like this. Just feeling angry and hurt today.

Off to lunch right now. I'll check in on all your threads when I get back.