Hot in Missouri, my air conditioner is out, I have repair man coming today, was hot in the house last night.

2 kids D9 and D6 with the stomach flu, so they were throwing up all night, every hour, it was like they were taking turns. D9 at 11pm, D6 at midnight, D9 at 1:00am, D6 at 2:00am etc. wow only got about 2 hours of straight sleep 4am to 6am.

Told W when she arrived for work this morning, that I did not want her to take D9 and D6 to their summer class today. That I wanted them to stay home and rest. Told her about D9 and D6 being sick all night, and again she started off talking about herself how she was sick Saturday and maybe that is what she had etc give it up already I don't care. I listened to her but didn't respond, after she was done talking about herself (me, me, me, me) I walked away and went about my business. She said have a good day as I left for work and I got sad \:\( thinking about how we were not so long ago.

I cannot stand the thought of her with another man,. I am trying to get that image out of my head, but seeing her every day brings it back, I truly cannot wait till summer is over and she is gone. Then it will be just me and my 4 babies and I can move on with my life.

FYI whatdidido is still missing

We all have a long haul ahead of us good or bad it's the path we choose thats important.

M45
W41
M10 3/4 years
D9, D6, D6, S5
OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me
WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08