Not sure where to go here!! HELP!!

[Augtan]

Thanks running and Saffie!! I agree totally about divorce and kids. I do not understand "giving up" at all. I thought M was forever and never, ever thought divorce was an option. I don't want to break up my marriage at all. I have tried to reason with him and it is just not possible. It is in no way a knee jerk reaction, I have been dealing with this for almost 2 years. And, I am sorry if it came across that I am going to just go out there and find someone just to have love. I have no intention of that, but someday I want to be loved again and I think I deserve that. Doesn't everyone? I am 37 yrs old and the prospect of living the rest of my entire life in a loveless marriage is not at all going to work for me. I cannot just live wih him like that. I agree that right now, my kids would be relieved if we seperated, but not in the long run. I have a high-school daughter and the decision has to be made as to where we are living before school starts again. She is very intelligent and needs to be stable for her grades to be good to get into a good college. Believe me my kids are all I think about and my top priority in this whole mess. He told me again last night that there is no hope for our marriage, that he will never be able to get along with me, that I need to "get over it" and "move on". I don't understand this at all. He is back to justifying the A with "you treated me like crap for 16 yrs., my needs weren't being met, so I had every right to have an A" I cannot live with that or like this anymore. If he would move out it would be different, but to have him in my face all the time and still working with the "-hore" is not getting us anywhere. I think putting some space between us, will be good. He has no one else, no family or anything. He will be stunned by what happens and hopefully realize how good it really was.

I have admitted to every mistake I have made, but he just says he was a great husband and gave me everything I ever wanted. Then we just get in a circular fight that goes no where. We end up playing the blame game and I just sob. Its awful.

me-37
H-41
m in 1991
D-15, S-12, D-9
H's A-10/06 to 7/07
Sep-9/07 to 12/07
moved back- 12/07
wants D but won't move out-4/07