I think he is still trying as hard as he can to convince you that he means business. And you keep telling him you will not abandon him. Go on with the plan you had to find your true self. Just as you were saying the other night. And start walking away from him. He wants to see you do that. He will kick you in the teeth until you do it. You are stubborn, yes. I can see that. Stop telling him you will be there for him. Stop telling yourself you will be there for him. Just tell your kids that you will be there for them. They need you. They are not conditioned to be abandoned as he is. Do your best to protect them from it. You cannot stop his desire for abandonment. Perhaps you can stop this from going into the next generation.
