cw68, "I'm a mother looking at a lifetime of pain for my children and I know that it's at his hands. There's just no way to deal with it that I know of, and yet I know that I must."
I am right there with you too. The kids' ages, duaration of our Ms similar. I feel you. I am trying so hard to avoid all this. But if I fail, if he decides to proceed I know I will be fine. You will be too. One day each day. You can't run from pain. Face it. Cry and let it all out. You need to hit bottom before you can go up again. Show your kids what being a fighter means. Be their everything.
