talked a lot about him, him, him.. he cleared up a lot about house- he said its our decision too- after i had said whatever he wanted to do was fine..so i said it sounds like either counter or not right? he said right- i said lets go with your gut instinct and not counter...i also said i dont want to sell it at all and he said then what will we do with it- i changed the subject and said lets just go with your gut instinct...
we talked about his $$ (as he had !surprise! stopped Direct Deposit) he said (muttered) that he stopped DD for Protection (what an alien) but he will deposit tomorrow...i said ok i understand...please keep me in the loop if you change anything, he said you too- i said NO changes planned...everything is the same. He is in such FEAR mode...
then i sort of backslid- i think he eluded to him being out of town and when he gets back we should talk about things...i said what are you thinking about things? he said im still here....i mean, im still in the same line of thinking....how about you? he didnt say D or anything remotely like that- cant even say the words..
i said processing a lot, learning a lot about myself, some major realizations....
he said well im happy to hear you are doing so well....i said ok- call me when you want to get together- he said he will cal fri or sat to set something up.
UGH. not feeling very positive although we had some good laughs and i stroked his ego a lot.
so sad...where did he go?? just left.....gone away...poor guy- i really do have symnpathy for him and it HURTS me.
any thoughts?
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