Pregnant and trying to be stronger

[blindsided1]

Well, this sucky day is almost over - thank goodness. It has not been a good day emotionally for me. I feel like everything is coming back from the start. It's like I am reliving the whole walk out again and again. I went to C and she didn't help at all. I need to get my head on straight and I'm just not doing that very well. My H is and a$$hole. We are about to have a baby and he couldn't give a rats a$$ how I am doing/feeling. He can't even check up on me or see if I need help with anything. I hate his guts. I hate him. Just let me get the F over him. He isn't worth this pain or anger or hurt. It's just not worth it. I feel ashamed that I married someone who could be this cold hearted and uncaring. How could I have been so stupid?