Just now he told me that he is planning to leave me. That we will not be together for long. He said that he is to blame for being my puppet for so long, that he is to blame for letting me control me, and that it must be hard to lose a puppet.
I just don't understand this. We had dinner at our house tonight with our youngest son and his girlfriend. A nice evening, and I am just tired of this up and down.
I asked him when he is planning to leave and he told me that he didn't know. He is afraid that I will "lock up the house" and keep him from his belongings. He said that he would like to leave for a couple of months, to see how he feels and if he misses me.
Ok Twin. I took the horn to the head this time. I don't want to do this anymore. I hurt so much.
He agreed that he was probably in MLC, but so what? I asked if he would give up all that we have without even trying to talke to anyone, and he said "what are they going to do, drug me?"
So I'm crying again, and I'm feeling like I am alone. I told him he could start trying to figure out now if he misses me, because I am done. I'm the one feeling like a puppet, and he is the master, pulling my strings. All I want him to do is put his arms around me and tell me it's a bad dream.
I guess I have been being too nice, and making things too easy for him. What do I really have to lose? He wants to go, but won't, only escapes to the bar and drinks. We have a small house, so I guess I will be sleeping in the den, and doing all that I can to avoid him. No confrontation, polite absence. No effort at communication from my end.
How can he miss me if we are both still in the same small house?
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
