Holy Smokes....I think about how I could easily miss something important because I am not receptive to it.

I wonder how much I am expecting the worse and second guessing anything nice.

I just don't think I'll ever hear the depth of remorse I read about.

So, do I have to?

I am more afraid of getting hurt than him hitting the bottom of a rock pit. The most damage this has done to me is the ability to trust.

Sophie

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Me-50
H-38
Married 15 years 8/7/08
D8
S10
S13
H affair 11/04-7/04 maybe longer
H moved out 4/06

7/30/08- present: Reconnecting w/kids,friendly
10/30/08 H signed D papers
11/10/08 D papers filed
11/13/08 D papers served at home