Thanks Karen :o) Helps to know others have been through it. Today has been very blah. I sent H an email about the gutters and the neighbor and ended with 'I thought about you this weekend. How are you?'. Since he had the mini breakdown over email last week about things going to fast and him not knowing himself any more I was hopeful. His reply was very cheery - yes he is doing much better and said our talk had helped him and glad we had gotten things out in the open and some chatty stuff about a baseball game he is going to. It irked me because he barely talked at all after his breakdown email and it was all me reassuring him that his parents won't hate him, that I will be okay when he leaves and am still sad (it bothered him tat i did not seem that upset). Ugh! So today he says our talked helped and he is doing well - after a 14 hour date with his OW yesterday I guess he would be!
I caved and emailed back about how hard it is knowing someone else has his heart, how hard it will be to stay friends after he leaves and how i am torn between loyalty to him and moving on. I know, I know - I should not have sent it! He'll be home within an hour and who knows if he will say anything since he didn't email me back. I should not have sent it, I just caved and I almost felt I had been too reassuring when we talked last night and he was feeling a little too good about how smoothly this was going.
Who knows - I will post if he brings it up tonight.
Me 32/H 32 M 3yrs/T 8 yrs 0 kids and 1 dog Bomb 5/15/08 - wants to end it to pursue OW Seeing OW and moving out 7/08
