Hi Ingrid - I read what happened and wanted to send you (((hugs))). I too am struggling with whether to stay or go, but when we can still laugh together and I still feel a pull sometimes, I feel like I can't give up quite yet.
Today is probably a bad day to post to you as I am feeling numb. I feel like I need to move back to the "middle" and "do nothing" for a while (I'm glad you like the book!).
Why is it always 2 steps forward 3 steps back?
You hang in there and the answer will come to you (that's what I keep telling myself anyway).