Pregnant and trying to be stronger

[blindsided1]

Thanks. I know that it gets better. But, it gets better for a while and then it comes crashing down again. I just want it to go away. I don't want to hurt over him anymore. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of dwelling. I'm sick of crying. Sometimes I feel like no matter what I do, it just go away. That I just can't truly get over this. Maybe it's my hormones (very likely) or the fact that our baby will be here soon. Whatever it is, it hurts. I have counselling tonight, thank goodness. I just really want my H to love me again and I just can't get that. So, I'm going to go find something to do that doesn't relate to him. I think the other part of the last two days being depressed is because I have been cleaning out some stuff upstairs and came across our wedding stuff, and pictures of our honeymoon. It's hard to look at our pictures and know we were happy and realize that in a very short time, he can just forget that we were once there. We loved each other and we planned our life together. Then he gave up and left and planned a new life with someone else. And, here I am just trying to pick up the pieces of my broken heart, my broken marriage and my broken family - all by myself. And all the while, about to give birth to a new life that I am responsible for and Mommy can't even get her life together. I'm just feeling overwhelmed.