Honey, right now is not the time to be stressing over LL. You just lost your beloved pet, and you are still in mourning. You already know the stuff in our heads in usually much worse then the real story. Don't borrow trouble, keep your focus where it needs to be. ((((((((hugs))))))))
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.