Pregnant and trying to be stronger

[NikB]

I don't even exist.

Really? If you don't exist, who's posting?

(Or are you reading your H's mind, ASSuming this is how he's feeling, and making yourself feel worthless because of this?)

My birthday is Thursday and I know he won't even acknowledge it.

1. No expectations. So you shouldn't EXPECT him to acknowledge it.

2. More assumptions and more negative thinking. Why do this to yourself?

I just feel so unloved and uncared for by my H.

Start loving yourself and caring for yourself. Then you'll feel better. AND you'll be in a healthy place to start a new R with him if he changes his mind. Right now you're still way too needy, desparate, relying on him for your own sense of self worth. Even if he came back, you're not ready.

Now, I'm really just nothing.

Again - really?? If you're nothing and don't exist, who the heck is typing all these posts?