Pregnant and trying to be stronger

[blindsided1]

I hope that these feelings will all go away once Kendall is here. I woke up sad again today. I don't know why I feel so sad, but I do. It just hurts so much that he doesn't feel any need to make sure that I am okay or taken care of. I hate that he is with someone else and living another life. I hate that it has been 7 months and I can't just get over him. I can't just stop loving and missing him. I just want it to go away. I just want to be over him. The nights we went to classes he would be nice and caring and then when I'm out of sight, I'm just out of mind. I don't even exist. My birthday is Thursday and I know he won't even acknowledge it. He's too busy with his new life. It is just really hurting lately. I just feel so unloved and uncared for by my H. It's getting worse and worse. He doesn't even talk about sex with me anymore. I know that's ridiculous, but at least when he did that, I felt like he was still attracted to me and still part of his life. Now, I'm really just nothing. I'm just someone he used to love that is about to have his baby. I just want to be over him. That's what I pray for now.