Dont beat up on yourself, or apologise, you're carrying his baby right now, its no wonder you're not "over him" yet. From what I have seen of a couple of friends of mine and their useless ex's, everything changes once you have a baby, it changes you so much, so I wouldnt be surprised if you feel very differently once your little girl is here. You will feel such a rush of love and protection for her, I dont suppose you will have much respect or love for your H, if he continues to act so selfishly toward you both.
I am thinking of you and wishing you well. I just hope, like everyone, that the birth of his daughter will be some kind of wake up call, but I think its a long shot, from everything you have told us about him!
Ali xxx
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread