Are we piecing yet?

[kiwi000]

Well SD, where do I start?

WAW gave me a card thanking me for giving her my friendship and saying she was sort that she wasn't there for me for a while but she was there for me now. We've had a few joint outings with S3 and I was invited over for dinner with WAW, S3 and WAW's parents. Things seem to be superficially OK but I wonder why she wants a reconciliation. Is it money (she'd commented to friends how hard it was to find a rich man or any good man and I earn a good living)?

WAW commented the other day while at my house that I was quiet. I thought about that later and I'm really quite different from the guy she walked away from last year. My fear is that she is the same angry, trecherous person who walked away last year and spent so much energy blaming me for her EA/PA.

Tonight our Nanny who's leaving us b/c she can't deal with WAW's mood swings told me that one of WAW's friends had cornered her (the Nanny) up and said that the marriage was awful and WAW was happier now (this was back in January however, before WAW's 'ephiphany'.

When the Nanny said she didn't know and wasn't party to everything, she was told 'it's easy for outsiders you know'. Remember that WAW accused me of having an affair with the Nanny earlier this year, some ten months after walking out on me and S3. I didn't have that affair.

WAW's friend was always a flake but for some reason this really annoyed me. I kept my cool and havn't reacted but the hurt and betrayal appear to be bubbling just beneath the surface for me.

I can still see the angry, bitchy WAW and that really worries me. I've changed so much, through DBing and through the simple neccssity of surviving a WAW. But has she? I can't tell and it's making me subconciously back off.

Any advice???