We got to the special cheesecake place and he asked where I wanted to sit (inside or outside). He said it was up to him and he said, "i chose the restaurant, I chose the dessert place, YOU choose inside or outside" (with a smile) so we went for outside. It had just rained, it was way cooler, the weather was perfect. while we were waiting for our table I told him I liked his new shoes and this is when he told me he was trying to rock the old man style. Then he commented on my shoes (I was wearing these earth flip flops with a aqua leather band) and asked me if they were earth shoes. This was the only comment he made about my appearance the whole evening!!
When we were seated we sat down side by side instead of across from each other at the table. B pulled out the menu and showed me the desserts and we were reading off the same menu (nice). We talked about what the best cheesecake options were and decided on the fresh strawberry pie after asking the waiter if the strawberries were fresh or gloopy. When it came out the strawberry topping was very gelatinous, almost as high as the cheesecake itself, and B made a joke about all my food that evening being very gloopy (at the indonesian place I got these weird gelatinous steamed fish things). Then we shared our cheesecake
At the cheesecake place he asked me about my brother, and we also talked about my dad. I asked him about his family and he told me how he is going out to CA to see his grandparents partly b/c they are kind of going downhill. He also told me about his little brother, and his middle brother....
He pointed out that I might need to catch a cab if I wanted to make the 11.11. I made a joke that I could just shovel the cheesecake down my throat and throw some money on the table. And then he said, "oh, no [you don't have to do that]". We (somewhat leisurely) ate a little more cheesecake and then paid and started walking somewhat fast towards the station.
A couple things happened on the walk toward the station:
-He started describing a silly rap video from youtube and then just said, "I should probably just send it to you". I asked him if he had ever seen "flight of the concords" and described the rap from the video link I posted above. He hadn't seen that one but then HE STARTED SINGING THE FOLLOWING SONG: business time And I started singing along, and we sang this very silly, very sexual song together while walking down 8th avenue or whatever (!!!)
-I told him something like, "It would be nice to hear you play bluegrass sometime" (hinting that I would like to come to his concert next week). (Though I do understand that he might prefer it if I wasn't there, b/c I would probably make it more nervous and stressful, being there). And he said he could include me in the mass email he sends out about the details of the performance. Kind of non comittal. ???
-He asked me when my group was performing at the festival. I told him this Saturday. He asked what else would be on the program and I told him I didn't know but it woudl definitely be good. And I said, "you're invited, but no pressure!" kind of jokey.
-Throughout the evening I kept telling him that I was so excited for all of the positive things he was doing with his life, and he said something like, "I'm really happy with where I'm at right now."
That made me feel weird b/c *Though* I want him to be happy & I understand there are things in his life that make him happy that I am glad about, it is hard for me to understand him being happy with his weird quartet situation and shitty apartment and everything. it was like I didn't believe it, or I didn't want to believe it. but I guess if he really is happy, then that would be a better foundation for us to build a new R on, than him being unhappy. ????
-He asked me if I was doing yoga at lyricafest and I said yes. I told him normally I just go running, then do yoga, then deep relaxation, some positive visualization for what I am trying to manifest, some special requests [prayers] for people who need special help, and then special [prayers] of gratitude for things that are already manifesting. He asked me how I came up with that order and I said it just sort of evolved. And then I talked for a little while about how much I loved my yoga teacher in ATL and how the yoga I am doing right now is getting way more than just physical and opening up and shifting things on a lot of other levels, and I was excited about it.
He helped me find the right entrance to the commuter train station and it was time to say goodbye. I said, "It was good to see you. It would be nice to maybe see you again sometime." And then there was another minimal-contact hug and he said, "yeah, maybe sometime." And then we were like, "OK, take care, bye" and I walked REALLY QUICKLY into the station.
