OK guys, I am back!!!! Everything went OK. I think I did a good job. I think we had fun. It was good to see him. Warning: this is going to b eREALLY LONG.....we hung out for three hours.

I spent the afternoon break doing my hair and makeup and planning my route and packing my little purse. I left rehearsal half an hour early so I could get there without rushing and ate a little mini dinner before I left so I wouldn't be starvational.

On the train on the way in I did my facercise ( ;\) ) and did some deep breathing and visualization. I thought about all the people in the world who wanted me to succeed tonight and all the people who will love me no matter what happened tonight and I imagined all that love flowing through me and out into the world.

While I was on the train B texted me that he was running about 20 mins late and he would call me when he got there. I texted him back not to worry and that I would meet him on the same corner we had said before. Then my train was about 20 minutes late and I made a pit stop to wee and fix my hair and he called me when I was in the bathroom line so I waited to call him until I was done beautifying myself.

I walked to the corner, and on the last block I adjusted my neckline so you could see my extremely hot bra straps just a little bit peeking out. And then I got to the end of the block and he was waiting on the other side of the street and I think maybe he saw me do the "adjustment".

The light changed and it was a little ackward and I just waited on my side of the street so he could cross toward me and we wouldn't meet in the middle of the street. He gave a me a hug, but a minimal contact hug. Then we started walking up 9th avenue to look for a restaurant.

He definitely looked different. He has a almost-bushy beard now, which he's never had before. I have never seen him except with a neatly trimmed beard, or no beard. It actually makes me think he isn't seening anyone else b/c I am not sure any woman would be into this bushy beard!!! ALSO, he was wearing new white sneakers (kinda snazzy) and grey socks kind of pulled up. Later in the evening he made a joke about trying to do the "old man style". He was wearing completely nondescript like dark brown shorts and a dark blue nondescript t shirt. I reflected on this after our time together and it almost made me wonder if he was TRYING to look not sharp. Every other time we've been out to eat he would put on a sexy button down shirt, and he always enjoyed dressing up to go out with me. I wondered if he was sending a message like "this is not a date b/c I am not wearing a nice shirt" or "I can't be bothered to trim my megabeard" or "I can't be bothered to make myself look nice for A TOTAL BABE" ???