Ok, here is an update of my weekend. I was feeling pretty down and out a couple of times while I posted here last. I think we all go through this. My B forced my to get out of the house this weekend and go and see Prince Caspian and Indie Jones. I really enjoyed both films and found myself smiling again.
I knew H was bringing S back today around 6 so I made sure to wear a shirt that was from one of our best vacations we took together and it looks good on me. Plus I put on a little bit of makeup and had my hair looking very nice. They get here a little early and H will not even look at me. Talks to me like he has a chip on his shoulder. Tells me that we need to talk about our custody arrangment. I told him I was very open and I thought it was important that S had time with his dad. He said he would email his thoughts then ran out of there as fast as he could.
I emailed him that I was not trying to control the situations, that I truly wanted us to come to a common ground and that I looked forward to hearing what his ideas were. I also asked him (get ready for the 2x4's) if he hated me now because whenever he talks to me or sees me there is so much anger.
He replied that he could never hate me, but there is so much anger towards me inside of him. He didnt want to go into it becasue he was trying to wind down for the evening (typical responce when emotions are involved). He said he would email me some of the things that he was anger with me about. I know what this email is going to say: I had no right to take son away, I had no right to tell family about A, and I am trying to manipulate him to get what I want. <Sigh> I guess I asked for it so we will see if I am right.
Despite how he acted towards me, I am not torn up inside. I feel like today was a more peaceful day and I can walk this path after all.
Broken Hearted ------------------ Me - 36 H - 37 S - 8 Married - 1992 ILYNILWY - August 2007 Moved Out - March 2008 OW Revieled - May 28, 2008 Filed for D - July 2, 2008
