Everyone has given you great advice. Let go and let God!
Look at what happened to me and my sitch. It took time but my H has made it back to me and our family. When I finally let go and gave it to God I found such peace in my life.
I know how much your H's words hurt you. My H used to tell me that he wanted a D. He said he was happoer than ever but I could see it in his dead eyes that wasn't true. He wouldn't hug me either, God forbid that I accidently touch him or brushed by him. He would act like he was on fire!!!
This is just another part of MLC. You will be okay, you will make it. One day at a time@
