Postponing Father's Day

[Sophie]

I've been pretty dark...for most of the last 9 months...and I'm doing pretty well.

Maybe I need more of a definition of going dark? I'm all for it...and I am only dark where H is concerned. The rest of our lives, the kids and mine, is pretty busy.

I think I need a little 'permission' to continue through Father's Day weekend. He just hasn't been a father....and I feel uncomfortable around him. As do the kids.


They are uncomfortable with H also...they rarely see him. They tell me they don't want to deal with dad's moods and troubles.

I've tried to explain this in the past and then he blames me, berates me and all sorts of other things that I have forgotten..yea:)