I am reading the book Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. It is a good book that a lot of people are reading now. I just came upon a quote that made me think of you. The author is trying to do something that is difficult for her, and she is very frustrated with her inability to suceed at this task, when she can look around and see everyone around her doing it with no problem. She says:
"I was full of a hot, powerful sadness and would have loved to burst into the comfort of tears, but tried hard not to, remembering something my Guru once said - that you should never give yourself a chance to fall apart because, when you do, it becomes a tendency and it happens over and over again. You must practice staying strong, instead."
This is what your husband is counting on from you. He counts on you falling apart. You must not do it. Your victory will come from having patience, straightening your spine and standing tall, and trusting in the system. You will succeed if you do this. But if you fall apart, like he thinks you will, then you will have trouble achieving your goals.
