So. Camping in 94 degree weather with 15 3rd graders and a co-leader who is afraid of bugs. It was AWESOME!!! I am so lucky to be with this group--all of the leaders commented at the end at how great our girls are (it helped to have some other troops there to compare to. Who would volunteer for some of that?!) We had a great time.

This is a group of people who know ME. Not me and x, the couple. Just me. Makes it easier to be around them, you know? And I felt pretty normal. I think seeing him last week and getting that utter feeling of disconnect was a move forward. Again, not in the direction a loving spouse would ever want to move (and that was what I was). But I'm not allowed to be that, anymore.

After camping with D, we met up with S at home. He had been camping with his troop. An hour later, I had D on a playdate and S and I were meeting up with his troop again to try out for the Olympic Luge team (I kid you not!). They do a tour of American cities, letting kids try the sport in a street version of luge. They evaluate the kids, and we will get a call-back letter (or a polite thank you) in October. S did really well and loved it \:\) We'll see.
On the way home, S asked me if I planned on dating; he said he saw the link to my MySpace page. (No, it is set for completely private and he hasn't seen it). I told him, not right now, but what do you think about that? He said it could be awesome, or it could be the worst thing in the world--depends. I just told him that if I ever go that route, the only person who would be good enough for me must also be right for my kids. He left it at that.

stbx called them an hour early tonight. Either he has a hot date tonight, or he felt left out of what was a great weekend. Who cares?