Hi everyone, It is has been a very long time since I have been on the boards and there are many of you that have no idea who I am. I was a broken hearted left behind wife with 2 children. I was devasted! If it was not for many people on this board talking me thorough it for hours a day for days on end I would have never lived through it..literally!!! I owe my life to many of you guys and my family and friends here at home. I look back on it now and can't believe one situation in your life is so strong it can and will destroy you..and it does! But you dont have to let it, so everyone that reads this please promise yourself that the situation in your life right now will not break you completely.
A little update..and I came to this topic because this is where I spent all my time.
My divorce was final on April 24th and as much as I hated to have to be called "divorced" it was a little bit of a relief. On the 15th of this month it will be 2 years since he quit coming home one night. I now realize that is not someone whom I want to spend the rest of my life with. He still has his 21 yr old girlfriend. I hear from people all the time that he lets all her under age sisters, brother and frinds come to his house and party. Many of them leave drunk and one got alchol poisioning the other day ..so that really is sad and I want nothing to do with that. He is getting the girls reguarly and he is doing good with them for now. I am not sure how much partying is going on when they are there but I am taking my time to figure that out so I know I am not wrong and then I will fix that situation also. He still is not making it financially either, his Mom is still paying absoutely everything for him..again not a life I want to live.
As for me: I started my own company, something I have always wanted to do and never would take that plunge. I was laid off in March and took the oppurnity and it is working out great (for now at least) I work from home so my girls get to stay home for the summer instead of spending it at daycare. I am moving them to our school district instead of using my Mom's address and then going there after school b/c I could never get to them in time. They will be able to come straight home and we will not have a 30-45 min drive every day getting home from my Mom's. I have almost paid my car off which is a HUGE financial relief and not to mention how good it makes you feel to have something paid off. I still have sad days and some days I really really miss my H, but the man I see now is not my H and I am not sure he will ever return. Those sad days are fewer and fewer between and they do not get my completely down..just more of a "mood" if you will. i do miss my old life as a wife but my life now is really more positive and less stressful even though I am a single mom of two that has to do everything! I have tried to get on a few dating websites but I can't seem to find anyone I am interested in talking to so I for now I think it is safe to say I am doing good alone and not ready for that yet. I know one day I will be though so I am not rushing it. I just wanted to drop a quick note for two reasons: 1. to let all my friends here know what has happened in my life, as I know somedays not too far back ya'll would worry from day to day if you would ever hear from me again in fear I have done something stupid to myself. ( and I miss you guys) 2. To let all the newcomers know there is hope. I didn't think there was but it turns out everyone else was right and I was wrong.
Thank you again everyone and I am always in debt to you guys!!
