The 80/20 Rule...

[Valentine]

Patti, I know you, especially, know how I feel about losing my precious bubby.

Stomach bloat is something that happens with very little warning. It happens when a dog drinks too much water or food too quickly...he did that...I did not know...I just thought he was thirsty. It was 100 degrees outside when I brought him home and he would get really stressed staying at the vet clinic...in the end those things compounded...the stomach flips inside placing stress on the spleen and it twists the esophagus...all those things combined...well, you have minutes, if you're lucky perhaps an hour, to get your dog to a vet...my poor bubby. He had been sick a lot this year...and the stress of the spinal injury probably played into it. I am only guessing. My vet was surprised but he told me that there was nothing I could have done.

LL is such an idiot. I know I have to let my anger go...I will...I just cannot believe after all this time he is STILL such a coward. You are right though, he did have to make it about himself to hide his pain. I know he loved Torito alot too. I am not going to deny that.

I just feel like God is telling me to move on. Or maybe God is telling me to truly let go of LL. I saw a movie last night, another Tyler Perry film: diary of a Mad Black Woman, this woman, married for 18 yrs is thrown out of her house by her H so he can move his OW and their 2 children in. Anyhow, her mother tells her that she needs to forgive him for all the bad things he has done to her...not for him but for HER.

OMG, I don't know why but it hit me...I have to forgive LL and his abandonment of me, Torito and Petunia for ME. So I can truly move on and be the best person I can be.

I don't know if he will ever come back. The way he was talking, he never will come back. Then again he was drunk off his ass. He always talks like an idiot then.

So, I have to work on forgiving him for ME.