Patti, I know you, especially, know how I feel about losing my precious bubby.
Stomach bloat is something that happens with very little warning. It happens when a dog drinks too much water or food too quickly...he did that...I did not know...I just thought he was thirsty. It was 100 degrees outside when I brought him home and he would get really stressed staying at the vet clinic...in the end those things compounded...the stomach flips inside placing stress on the spleen and it twists the esophagus...all those things combined...well, you have minutes, if you're lucky perhaps an hour, to get your dog to a vet...my poor bubby. He had been sick a lot this year...and the stress of the spinal injury probably played into it. I am only guessing. My vet was surprised but he told me that there was nothing I could have done.
LL is such an idiot. I know I have to let my anger go...I will...I just cannot believe after all this time he is STILL such a coward. You are right though, he did have to make it about himself to hide his pain. I know he loved Torito alot too. I am not going to deny that.
I just feel like God is telling me to move on. Or maybe God is telling me to truly let go of LL. I saw a movie last night, another Tyler Perry film: diary of a Mad Black Woman, this woman, married for 18 yrs is thrown out of her house by her H so he can move his OW and their 2 children in. Anyhow, her mother tells her that she needs to forgive him for all the bad things he has done to her...not for him but for HER.
OMG, I don't know why but it hit me...I have to forgive LL and his abandonment of me, Torito and Petunia for ME. So I can truly move on and be the best person I can be.
I don't know if he will ever come back. The way he was talking, he never will come back. Then again he was drunk off his ass. He always talks like an idiot then.
So, I have to work on forgiving him for ME.
Aug '06: H moved out July '08: H had a kid with the OW May 12 '09: emancipation day
"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller
Upside, yes, my bubbies meant the world to me...still mean the world to me...the Diva is so lost...she follows me everywhere...I think she thinks I am going to leave her too.
I am so thankful for the time with him. I have learned that life is too short and I am thankful for all the moments I had...all the times I laughed at the silly things Torito did...all his facial expressions...the times when he lay quietly next to me when I cried my heart out when I was at my lowest.
So many wonderful memories...so many great years...
Aug '06: H moved out July '08: H had a kid with the OW May 12 '09: emancipation day
"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller
Ugh...the fun never stops...seems like LL was spotted at a restaurant by one of my close friends having a meal with a family...one girl was pregnant..he apparently rubbed her stomach...
So, what am I supposed to gather from that?
Does anyone have any thoughts?
Aug '06: H moved out July '08: H had a kid with the OW May 12 '09: emancipation day
"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller
I think it was an interesting situation. I think they were his friends...but as for the pregnant girl...I really have no idea.
My friend sent me a pic...he was sitting next to her but not very close at all...he had his hand on the back of her chair. As far as my friend said they were not kissy touchy feely...but then she didn't text me back...and has not contacted me since...
You're right it makes you crazy...and he had gone swimming...as they were all in swimming trunks...
I wish this had not popped up right now...my bubby has just died and STILL LL is doing stupid sh*t.
When will this ever end????
Aug '06: H moved out July '08: H had a kid with the OW May 12 '09: emancipation day
"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller
