phbear. Wow. You are doing all the right things. I know, they feel wrong, its not what you want but you are with the knowledge that you are protecting yourself. I just told H last night "I don't have a choice on the divorce, but I have a choice to be a wreck or to be fine. I am choosing to be fine.".
Many many attys give you a free initial consult (usually 30 minutes). Look around for a couple of those.
