Today, when I went to pick up the kids from my in-laws. H walked into the kitchen. His mom had made him some lunch, and put it on a tray for him. They do a lot of eating in front of the TV, so she had his food on a tray. I was sitting at the table with the kids helping them have a snack. So, I was very surprised when H took his tray over to the table and sat down with us. I made some small talk about a few people that I saw at the baby shower and how they're doing (the shower was h's friends wife). He actually LOOKED at me! I was expecting the head down, look everywhere except at me that I got the day before. In fact, for a moment we made eye contact and held it for a bit without saying anything. Not much.
God, what a sorry state you're in when you're happy that your spouse LOOKS at you.
I sent him a quick email. Simple and short. I didn't ask for a response from him, but I simply said something to him that I'd been thinking about in regards to respect. Then, I added that again, I understood his frustration with me, and that I wouldn't want to talk to me either.
Going dark is so dang hard this weekend. Tomorrow is his aunts party, and we're all going out. I really didn't expect h to go since it's at the tea house, but I heard him mention it today to his mom. So, I guess he'll be there.
Not sure what to expect...
Me 36 Husband 35 D5 S2 separated: 10/29/07-present Served divorce papers 1/22/09 "When the world gives out beneath your feet, it is time to learn how to fly."
