He left then Cheated ---Now What???

[No Longer BH]

I have been doubting myself here lately. As we all know I slipped up a couple of times last week and talked to H about R....begging to do MC. When he confirmed affair week and a half ago I packed up and ran 2 hours away. I am doing NC, going completely dark. In fact when he came to pick up S for weekend visitation, I had my B meet him instead of me. Should I keep doing this until he contacts me? Chances are he is not going to contact me at all unless it is with a one line email about scheduling son.

I know I need to appear strong and confident so that he will see what he is missing. I am not at that point yet. My thoughts are that if I do the NC until I come to a better place then I can act AS IF when we do the hand off of son. Does this really work? So many past here have asked this same question, and so many people here are still hurting. It just really seems like the majority of people end up D. Sometimes I get even more sad after being here.

Sorry, I'm just rambling.