Hope4us struggle, part 4

[Hope4us]

Thanks Kat. I can't tell you what it means to get support like we all get here. It's just so darn tiring. Our spouses are the ones that have done this crap and we're the one's left to pick up the pieces without ANY help, affection, effort on their parts and I'm just tired.

I'm tired of not having ANY of my needs met. Well, let me back up, the last week and a half or so she's meeting my need for conversation, but that's it. She's done this and I'm the one (just like all us here) doing ALL the work to save this marriage and there is no guarantee that I'll ever even get any kind of remorse or apology. These waywards just all think they're justified in what they've done and we're the one's that have to do all the work. Maybe this is why so many marriages fail after infidelity, because the LBS just gives up and when the WAS figures it out, it's too late. And that's a shame.

Ok, pity party over. I'm still confident we're going to make it. I'm confident by the time our family vacation is over in August she'll be groveling at my feet (yeah, nice wish). Ok, not groveling at my feet, but at least sleeping in my bed. Hey, maybe that's the goal. Intimacy by the end of our family vacation. That week will be the one year anniversary of ILYBINILWY.

Oh well, time to get back on the horse and save this marriage. I just hope some day she appreciates it.