Thanks WCW! You're right on about the time of year. I need to slow down to one day at a time.
I feel like I've done so many 180s through out this process that I'm in danger of ending up back where I started. He is not in contact much this week, so I'm just leaving him be--didn't even call when the Penguins lost the Stanley Cup finals. I left a VM this morning to say hello, but that was it. I think my 180s right now are along the lines of just leaving him alone and refocusing on me.
To take care of myself this week, I went to yoga on Thursday and out with work friends last night for drinks, then on to a production of Rocky Horor Picture Show. I have never seen the stage production--didn't even know there was one, actually--and had a BLAST! An actor tried to take me up on the stage at the end, but I wouldn't go--I'm happy to dance anonymously in the audience, but onstage is a different story! Today I'm cleaning and organizing--good feng shui in that. Tomorrow I may go see the "Sex and the City" movie with FF. So lots of nice things for myself and little dwelling on my situation. When I think of H, I say a little prayer for his healing and move on.
