If you / Don't care for it

[MichelleLT]

I don't think he's looking at legal S though. I suspect he's pushing to do the summary dissolution again. Which I definitely don't want to do.

But if he's gonna be gone for another year starting in a couple months, I feel like nothing is going to be able to improve with all that distance again. I mean, that's how things went wrong the first time!!! And I really don't want to sit around waiting for him to come home again, not knowing where he'll decide home is! It was hard enough having him deploy the first time when we had a great R and we were there for each other emotionally.

I feel like every time we have seen each other in the last 6 months, things have gone well. We get along, we chat. It's been pretty good. And it always takes a couple days for the goodness to wear off and his doubts to come back. I feel like if we saw each other MORE we could make some progress. And now he wants to leave again. Leave the country, leave the M, abandon me yet again - physically, emotionally, financially, etc.

Relaxing tonight sounds like a good idea. Maybe Java City is a good idea.